Dear Reader,
For the last two weeks, I have been practicing releasing my resistance – even the slightest bit – to upcoming situations. Whether it is a busy day without down time, a meeting where I need to give a presentation, or an event I am responsible for running, every time I detect resistance to the way things are, or the way things might go – I release it.
It’s a very powerful practice.
During this time, I have consciously embraced the question “What can I allow myself to accomplish?” Each time I have felt myself wanting to pull back, play it safe, or give a little less of myself to avoid being vulnerable, I have asked that question and moved forward in as open a way as possible. It can be a little scary, but…
The result has been a freeing up of my energy to be fully present and fully myself in any given situation. Resisting what is and being even a little bit guarded takes energy and creates stress. When that source of stress is removed, when that energy is freed up, I find that I have more energy to direct toward being fully engaged.
This experiment has led to a big discovery: sometimes under stress I use “being prepared” as a form of resistance to being fully present. It’s a protective thing. My need to be prepared is accompanied by a subtle fear that if I am not prepared, I won’t know what to do in the moment. Even deeper, perhaps, lies a fear that somehow I might not be “enough” exactly as I am.
To my delight, I have discovered that every time I release my resistance, fear, need to be prepared and any other junk lurking beneath the surface, I am more able to be myself, more ready to do what is called for in an inspired way, more connected with my intuition and, if I do make a mistake, more able to accept it and move on.
For me, this approach is a keeper. Detecting my resistance and letting it go allows me to feel more free in general and helps me be more spontaneous. I like that!
I honor your loving heart,
John
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